SUCKED.
I mean...honestly...maybe it's just the stress of going back to school and everything (this time last year was when I basically started falling apart) but I honestly haven't been this miserable in a long time. I feel like crawling into a hole and never coming out. I'm absolutely terrified of everything. I feel like there's so much pressure on my shoulders and I can't handle it. I'm not good enough...I can't do it,I honestly can't. Everyone is expecting so much from me and without even meaning to do so I've already failed them. More than anything...I'm failing myself...I just feel like a complete screw up and if I could, I'd just leave for college tomorrow so that I don't have to deal with any of this. I used to be so excited for senior year...now I'm just terrified and anxious. This is the time when I wish I wasn't in any honors/ap/ib classes and that I didn't do any extra curriculars. Life would be some much easier....and so...not scary. :(
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