I'm sorry

if I'm not acting normal lately
if I'm being a bad friend/person
if I'm not exactly a fun person to spend time with lately

I'm angry and miserable for absolutely no reason. I'm lonely, yet even the thought of spending time with other people makes me exhausted and everything pisses me off. I just want to crawl in bed and do absolutely nothing. I want a hug, and at the same time I just want to be alone.
I'm really hoping it's just pms, because if it doesn't wear off soon I don't know what I'm going to do.

My obsession

with weight is getting to be too much even for me.
I spend hours looking at thispiration and pro ana/mia tumblrs
I think I'm even starting to scare myself.
But I would do anything to look like that...

I can't remember the last time I felt so lonely.

All I do is go to school then work then sleep and repeat repeat repeat. I don't even talk to anyone anymore.