I can't.

I don't know.
I can't.
I need someone to slap me across the face in a superkoreandramalike fashion with novus playing in the background while it rains.
because I need to wake the **** up.
I'm so sick of walking around like a zombie, always miserable and angry.
I'm so sick of people forgetting my birthday and treating my like shit and making me feel like I'm less important the the goddamn SAT's.

I can't.
I honestly feel like crawling into a little hole and never ever coming out. And I know I'm being whiny and selfish and unappreciative but I really don't give a flying fruit right now (I'd type the word but I'm typing this in 8th period.... HI TECH GUYYYZ~)



I never want to be in love again. I don't want to get married, I don't want to go on dates, I don't even want to go to prom.
I don't want any of it. It's too much fucking effort.