I honestly kind of feel like a whore.
I've had one or more "love interests" every year of high school.
two of the DM's are my exes.
I broke up with my boyfriend like 2 weeks ago and I'm already fawning over someone else.
But then....it might seem like I've had so many guys in my life...but I really haven't. I mean, honestly, since like, January of Sophomore year (when I ended things with portee) I really didn't have much going on in that department until april of junior year when everything happened with John. But even that. In our 5 months of dating we saw each other like 20 times -____- we never even kissed. it honestly barely felt like a relationship...especially since the summer started. After like...July 20, we literally did not talk or see each other at all. So even though in a way I'm jumping from one guy to the next, it's honestly...like...everything with John really didn't mean anything...but when people find out that we broke up...especially if I end up with someone else *cough so much better cough*....what are they gonna think of me? -______-
The thing I don't understand is why these people even like me. I'm honestly not compliment fishing here, I'm serious. I'm not very pretty at all, and aside from being a d-cup I honestly have nothing physically attractive to offer either. I seriously don't understand why I've even had this many...situations so far any way....What am I doing wrong...or is this not wrong? Honestly...is it wrong to have guys like you...I mean honestly what the hell is wrong with it...(sorry I'm honestly trying to convince myself here.)
ugh...I don't know, I feel like a slut....but I'm finally kind of happy...because...no other person has ever tried so hard for me....and I want to try for him too....is that so wrong?
heyyyyyy
ReplyDeletedon't dare call urself a slut!!!
if you're a slut, i'm the motherho. :(
and people love you because you're beautiful :)
ReplyDeleteinside out <3
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