What a Kah-winky dink.

Wow. So the day after I blog about wishing with all my heart that I could have just one day that wasn't so bad, I have one of the worst fucking days ever.

I don't feel like going into detail.

I feel like I'm losing everything.

I feel like I have no control anymore

I feel like I don't know how to be happy.

I can't even remember being happy.


You know what's funny? By tomorrow I'll probably be totally fine. And yet, I won't be. I'll just bury this pain like every single other thing in my life because according to my family it's wrong to have feelings.

But tomorrow? Yeah, by tomorrow I'll be okay.
but for today...well at least I can just cry myself to sleep.