Bad Dreams

I woke up this morning in a panic...I have no idea why...I think I had a bad dream last night? I think...I think I had a lot of bad dreams last night...I woke up feeling really scared and sad and just...not happy. But it had nothing to do with anything that might have happened in real life...but for some reason, whatever it is that a dreamed about, worried me enough to put me in a bad mood today....I don't know if that really makes sense.
I guess what I mean is...it's like when you're happy everything seems happier. And when you're upset...even small things seem much worse. I went to sleep smiling last night...I talked to him on the phone for 2 hours...but neither of us had any idea that we had been on the phone for that long since the conversation flowed really well...I can honestly say that that's the most fun I've had on the phone in a long time :)
And when you go to sleep smiling as much as I was...all the problems in the world kind of turn into minor annoyances that retreat to the back of your mind.
But in the morning...everything....well everything feels kind of real again...and maybe it's only because the problems seem even worse because I'm in such a...well I would call it "content with a pinch of stress and anxiety" kind of mood.

I mean, aside from the general stress everyone is feeling right now: "OMG my GPA sucks, I fail at SAT's, I hate my life, I'm never going to get into college so I should just crawl into a hole and die." Which I am totally totally feeling right now...there are also...err...other things that I'm worrying a lot about...like whether or not I'll ever actually be able to spend time with him for more than 20 minutes T______T
It sounds really stupid but...it's quite painful to be honest...it's like every time I get to see him...I get so happy, but it's almost like a "teaser", because then he has to leave and I feel worse than before...It's honestly like every moment I'm not with him is just sitting and anticipating the next time I'll be able to be with him.
Missing someone.....sucks.
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore...I just feel really...bleh. I wish things were a bit simpler? I wish there weren't so many complications surrounding everything. I just want to be able to have fun without all the worry and stress...